New House

Today I am not as ill as I was yesterday. Is it the addition of new medicine or the second night in a room outside this house, or just that it took this long for some virus to work its way through.. in any case, I'll take it! I am very weak. But better.

We found a new casita for our final month of this trip in Santa Fe. It is in town, three blocks from the Plaza and very clean. It has a lovely little kiva fireplace and two sweet bedrooms and baths and a nice open kitchen-dining-living area. The owners are charming and friendly and work hard to make it a pleasant space. It is teeny. And there are no views. And I am saying goodbye to my mountain. And to the birds that have come to depend on the seeds I lay out for them. And to the beautiful fireplace and the goodness of this house, in all of its neglect, and it's possession of this particular piece of earth. The man who built the house 13 years ago has become a friend. He cared deeply about how to place the house and how to make the windows lovely and the way the clouds form behind the Ortiz mountains in the afternoon. It shows. You can feel it here. And I will miss this space.

And I will be so glad to feel better. And we will be close to restaurants (for which Santa Fe is famous) and walks around town and close to the galleries, the library, the video rental. If the casita is too closed in, I can carry my laptop to the library and work there.

We said to one another today that we would have had to leave this house in a month anyway so there you are. It is just the timing that has changed a bit. Bless it. Bless all that has happened. Release it. Welcome the next chapter.

Oh how we like to hold on to everything! So much so that there would eventually be room for nothing more. So even though it is feeling like something being wrenched away from our grasp, we ask for the grace to release it freely and welcome the next moment.

Like breath. Like the breathing in and breathing out that I have come to value and not take for granted so much.